Fucking terrible feeling inside.
Undescribable.

Living on my own in the States was definitely better.
I rather leave everything here, except Chewie,
& move to some place I prefer.
Only if I have the money.

And money-miracles never happen.
So I'm stuck here.
Wasting this life away.

I mean what else could God have planned,
that would make next year a better one?
Even if it's better, how great can it be?
It's not like I can be a mega Hollywood superstar,
or be on Forbes Richest list,
or become a Mensa genius right?

I'm kinda done with my life.
Just gonna take each day as it is.

I swear.

It's fucking painful inside.

For the record, Worst Christmas I had.

Thank You

& Amen.

"Passion."


Something like this happening on Christmas would be good.

I was extremely lazy to blog the past few days :x
Monday- Went out with Lindy Lau.
Tuesday- Ikea with Lindy Lau. She came over after that.
Wednesday- Lunch with Simin. She came over after that.

Been having countless nights of nightmares ><
But I finally had the sweetest dream last night!
I dreamt of Lucas! ^^
I freaking hell can't remember the entire dream,
nor continue it till the end,
cause of the stupid alarm -.-
All I remember was I was chatting with him really happily.
Haha.

I bet I was smiling like mad while dreaming! :D

This year seems to be so much different.
First time that I'm not feeling the Christmas spirit around here.
Maybe I'm still lagging from being halfway round the world.
But it still feels funny.
Fine, ignore me.

At least this year, I got to experience an early winter white Christmas :)
But how I wish...
Shut up.

I'm going to sleep in misery.
Crap.